Vanna's insides

Vanna's insides

Monday, September 15, 2014

Is this the end?

I thought that perhaps the time had come, that maybe the sun was setting on my life as a van dweller--all last week I was looking at apartments, drawing up budgets, planning for stability; however, I am so happy to say, I am recommitting to the lifestyle of transient.


I think the idea for stability stemmed from the steady employment I've found for myself.  And without really sitting with myself, I assumed the next step was an apartment.  But when I moved into the van, I made a point of telling people (those I chose to share my situation with) that this was not a decision made under duress.  I come from an incredible life of privilege, and by no means should anyone feel concern or guilt or pity for me.  To leave it now would feel hypocritical, yes, but mostly, I genuinely like this way of life.


A definite push in the direction of leasing an apartment has been that I've been house-sitting on and off for the past two months and have only been in the van intermittently throughout the summer.  This naturally makes routine difficult when I'm staying somewhere new every other week, and it's been hard not to fall into a state of lethargy when given the opportunity.  All of a sudden, I had a couch to zone out to NetFlicks on, or a house that allowed me to stay in and away from the world for days at a time.  I hadn't realized how important van life has been to the development of so many of my new and healthy habits--going to bed and waking up earlier, never drinking more than would allow me to drive safely, making use of each and every one of my days.

This morning was the first morning in what felt like quite a while that I rose in the van and then prepared for work at the YMCA.  It was nice and refreshing.  I feel an independance again that I'd lost temporarily in my reliance on other people's generosity and homes.  So much kindness has surrounded me this summer; the reprieve has been glorious.  I do believe I am ready return to the Van Life with a renewed energy and joy.

My reliable friend Vanna, which I paid a mere $1000 for back in January is still running as smoothly as ever (knock wood), and I have a feeling this is a one time deal for me, so why rush to its completion before a natural conclusion is able to occur?

So here is to the new season, and a renewed sense of appreciation.  Let the journey continue.  Thank you for reading this far, friends.

10 comments:

  1. Please post more frequently. I'm loving everything you write.

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    1. I'll see what I can do--knowing that there's an interest in reading is great motivation. Thanks so much for reading and posting, friend!

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    2. Yeah, you're writing is captivating and your "situation" too. Keep it up. Puleaze

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    1. Thank you for the note John. It really means a lot. Take care, ya?

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  3. My inner grammar Nazi immediately spotted a misspelling in your post, but I like your spelling better: indepenDANCE. Let's dance! :D

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  4. Thanks for sharing your life with us, Pam - stumbled across yours as I was searching blogs by singlet femmes who have been living the van dwelling life by choice. You are very inspirational ~ Best Wishes ~ Hikercrone

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    1. just catching this now, somehow, as i revisit my pages. thanks so much for the note, ms mclean!

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